February 20, 2013 § Leave a comment
Every minor detail of the face of things
How it breathe,
How it saw what it saw
Every word my problem spoke
Existing in sweet nothing.
That face meant the world to me
But it changed expressions so quickly.
I ran as fast as I could
But didn’t seem to catch up in time
It blurred in the distance
Disappearing in the fog
I found myself standing on a new island
Amist masked faces
Because that face had meant the world to me
The only face which I had studied so closely
Now the face of all things seemed very strange to me
Just like the face, which I lost in plea.
December 5, 2012 § Leave a comment
Should I celebrate or mourn?
You left me all alone
To make way for a ‘nice’.
The layers have build up of the cast
It pains my heart to see the start
Of the happy, mesmerized life
I had asked for your love
Rejection is all you replied
Then came by a dream.
Everything I had asked for you in
Everything caring, everything frank
Perfect. He loves me with all his might.
Am so confused
Its like a roller coaster ride
I have been forced upon
I am so damaged n crippled
That a simple beam of sunlight makes me want to run away and hide
Goodness seems wrong. Everything wrong, right.
Acceptance is being so hard
Am fighting and avoiding with all my might.
All my energies, still craving for you
But you have already pushed me aside
I have nowhere to go but to the inviting light
Its calling my name all the while I am straining to hear a word from you
Oh nothing seems right
Nothing seems right
Swallow me inside n build a new me after the turmoil.
November 12, 2012 § 1 Comment
Sometimes things change. Not always the way you expect them to. It is surprising but its good to be surprised once in a while. It keeps you on your toes and tips you off often. Eventually you learn to balance.
Loving without communicating (read: one sided love in no commitment act, friends with benefits) is not as simple as it seems.
When you see falling relationships all around, it may come as a relief and feel like a cake walk. Don’t get delusional about this because you possibly can’y go on forever with this little set up. Love is such a strong emotion that the heat radiates in the air in the near proximity. Sooner or later your little secret does start becoming a little obvious. And believe it or not, you are then, just left with a puddle of imaginary, messed up world which exists only in the realms of your minds.
So let go of these illusions. They come with their own complications, which can be worse than just “Relationships are Complicated” crap. You have to work to make it work. I quote
‘Communication in measurable amount’ is the key for a successful journey in wonderland.
Its not always rainbows and butterflies, but compromise that gets you along… Have a safe trip! 🙂
November 2, 2012 § Leave a comment
Walking through the different shades of rainbow
I walk out one realm of emotion
A phase which I do not regret
I feel more confident of myself
Am looking to build myself
By each n each piece that I shall now collect
The past feels like a trance
Been there, felt that
That’s all that can be said
The coma, I have recovered from
It all is a new experience in itself
A new perspective
Yet so many unsolved puzzles left
All roads shall lead to one door
I need to figure out my steps